...that I am enjoying and still learning now... Having a child and being a mom.
The feeling of being a mom to my daughter is really priceless. It just saddens me that I can't be with her the whole day. It's hard to be a working mom. Sometimes, I envy my mom or my daughter's nanny because they are the one who can witness Jaden's milestones and developments. I wasn't there when she did her first crawl neither did I hear her utter her first word. I wasn't there. Sad. But I want my baby to become a better person when she grows up. I want her to become smart and a person of good character. There are so many things I want to do with her. I want to teach her baby signs, listen to nursery rhymes and baby songs together, read books or play together. These things almost made me think...sometimes, of resigning just to take care of her and be with her everyday, 24/7...But I know that would be impracticable. I still need to work.
Like most babies of her age, Jaden is clingy right now. Good thing that though we just spend time together during week-ends, she still knows that I'm her mom. :P And I love her for that! She is so attached to me nowadays and prefers me over anybody else…even over her dad. This is exaggerating but I think she can easily recognize even my shadow or my footsteps. I really love my daughter. Who wouldn't love this cute little angel? I think most mothers will say that. And I would not let anyone hurt her in any way.
Two weeks ago we hired a nanny to take care of Jaden. We are not leaving her anymore at mom's house since we thought that maybe mom is already exhausted taking care of her grand children and I don't want Jaden to add up to her stress. Mom is not getting any younger. There was a time last week that I was at work and my mom called me. She reported to me that Jaden's nanny left her alone in the house. She went to my sister's house. My mom was there that's why she freaked out upon seeing the nanny coming there alone. Nanny's alibi is that she needs to look for baby's shoes that she thought was left during the day they went to have her vaccine. Good heavens! Is that reason enough to leave the baby alone in the house?? I got irritated my self upon hearing this. I can't wait to go home and spank her :D. I told Jerry about it. He wants me to reprimand the nanny and show her how angry we are for what she did...Later that day, I confronted the nanny and told her that what she did was wrong. I wasn't able to yell at her though I really wanted to for her to know how angry I am. But I was able to composed my self. Jerry on the other hand, didn't want the way I did. Actually we had a little argument because of that. I was just thankful that nothing bad happened to my daughter. If there is, I might not be able to forgive her.
I also learned that having a child tests our patience. Really. From the day she was born to present. It's a continuous test of patience for parents like us. Patience to her and to the people taking care of her. Like two nights ago, Jerry and I had a little tampuhan because of this. I just noticed lately that Jerry is quite impatient with regards to taking care of our baby. I don't want to sound different here towards him. I just noticed that maybe because he is also stressed out from work, or maybe because moms and dads are really different…. Hmmm. I'm not quite sure, but I think so.
The feeling of being a mom to my daughter is really priceless. It just saddens me that I can't be with her the whole day. It's hard to be a working mom. Sometimes, I envy my mom or my daughter's nanny because they are the one who can witness Jaden's milestones and developments. I wasn't there when she did her first crawl neither did I hear her utter her first word. I wasn't there. Sad. But I want my baby to become a better person when she grows up. I want her to become smart and a person of good character. There are so many things I want to do with her. I want to teach her baby signs, listen to nursery rhymes and baby songs together, read books or play together. These things almost made me think...sometimes, of resigning just to take care of her and be with her everyday, 24/7...But I know that would be impracticable. I still need to work.
Like most babies of her age, Jaden is clingy right now. Good thing that though we just spend time together during week-ends, she still knows that I'm her mom. :P And I love her for that! She is so attached to me nowadays and prefers me over anybody else…even over her dad. This is exaggerating but I think she can easily recognize even my shadow or my footsteps. I really love my daughter. Who wouldn't love this cute little angel? I think most mothers will say that. And I would not let anyone hurt her in any way.Two weeks ago we hired a nanny to take care of Jaden. We are not leaving her anymore at mom's house since we thought that maybe mom is already exhausted taking care of her grand children and I don't want Jaden to add up to her stress. Mom is not getting any younger. There was a time last week that I was at work and my mom called me. She reported to me that Jaden's nanny left her alone in the house. She went to my sister's house. My mom was there that's why she freaked out upon seeing the nanny coming there alone. Nanny's alibi is that she needs to look for baby's shoes that she thought was left during the day they went to have her vaccine. Good heavens! Is that reason enough to leave the baby alone in the house?? I got irritated my self upon hearing this. I can't wait to go home and spank her :D. I told Jerry about it. He wants me to reprimand the nanny and show her how angry we are for what she did...Later that day, I confronted the nanny and told her that what she did was wrong. I wasn't able to yell at her though I really wanted to for her to know how angry I am. But I was able to composed my self. Jerry on the other hand, didn't want the way I did. Actually we had a little argument because of that. I was just thankful that nothing bad happened to my daughter. If there is, I might not be able to forgive her.
I also learned that having a child tests our patience. Really. From the day she was born to present. It's a continuous test of patience for parents like us. Patience to her and to the people taking care of her. Like two nights ago, Jerry and I had a little tampuhan because of this. I just noticed lately that Jerry is quite impatient with regards to taking care of our baby. I don't want to sound different here towards him. I just noticed that maybe because he is also stressed out from work, or maybe because moms and dads are really different…. Hmmm. I'm not quite sure, but I think so.
This is what happened. I don't know why but Jaden became irritated that day. She pooped 5 times but it was not watery so I thought it's okay though its not normal. I sent message to her pedia but I didn't got a reply from her. I just cleaned her every time she poop and rub drapolene on her rashes. I know she is really uncomfortable with the redness and rashes. I was not feeling better my self that night that's why I asked him to take care of the baby. I was surprised when I heard Jaden crying at 12 midnight and saw 
him impatiently shaking the baby to sleep. Jaden was really crying hard. Out of irritation maybe, he quickly dropped her to the crib, immediately went to bed and just let her cry. Even though I am not feeling well, I picked her up, wiped cream on her rashes and lulled her to sleep. She stop crying and she slept soundly the whole night. I just can't understand why he did that to her. Didn't he understand that she was irritated because she feels pain? Is it because he doesn't have a motherly instinct like me? I got really furious of what he did that's why I completely ignored him the next day. It was later resolved when I told him how I felt and he said sorry. He also promised me that he'll never ever do that again.I could sense that he is really sorry. When we arrived from work, he immediately hugged Jaden and kissed her and kept on repeating the word "sorry" to her. I know Jaden didn't understand why her dad was doing that. She just responded with gigles and happy squeals. Well, It was noted and I will surely see to it that it won't happen again.
I just realized, sometimes it's also hard to be a good boss, a wife, and a mother at the same time in cases like these. I'm just thankful that God is in the midst of our family. We can control our emotions and be still inlove at each other again and again.
him impatiently shaking the baby to sleep. Jaden was really crying hard. Out of irritation maybe, he quickly dropped her to the crib, immediately went to bed and just let her cry. Even though I am not feeling well, I picked her up, wiped cream on her rashes and lulled her to sleep. She stop crying and she slept soundly the whole night. I just can't understand why he did that to her. Didn't he understand that she was irritated because she feels pain? Is it because he doesn't have a motherly instinct like me? I got really furious of what he did that's why I completely ignored him the next day. It was later resolved when I told him how I felt and he said sorry. He also promised me that he'll never ever do that again.I could sense that he is really sorry. When we arrived from work, he immediately hugged Jaden and kissed her and kept on repeating the word "sorry" to her. I know Jaden didn't understand why her dad was doing that. She just responded with gigles and happy squeals. Well, It was noted and I will surely see to it that it won't happen again.I just realized, sometimes it's also hard to be a good boss, a wife, and a mother at the same time in cases like these. I'm just thankful that God is in the midst of our family. We can control our emotions and be still inlove at each other again and again.
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